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The Fall of Expectations

May 28, 2007 sammy wiseguy 1 comment

They come everytime with new vigour and hope. And they die everytime like burned out greek tragedy.

They start with our search of the divine. A look towards the brighter pastures , emotionally , mentally , physically and spiritually. Your existance starts to hallucinate beyond its realm. You imagine a the glorius , the fantastic. You percieve the world around you in colors of pure love and reflection.

You start imagining a future consistent with your night time dreams. They raise you to a level of falsified security. People are closer than you ever thought they would be. Voices sing to you , like you are a child of the wild.

Fantasies come in flash once you close your eyes.

Your expectations , give you a emotional adneraline in a way you don’t feel in a normal state. This is when you are at the peak of optimism. And then , all of a sudden, like a wild beast coming out of hiding on its prey , reality strikes!

The world’s social order sets in. It rears its ugly head. The fragile pieces of your positivity just crumble and shatter all over. The expectations fall like a glass tower. Tearing through the sound barrier, scaring through your soul.

You feel like half of what you were. All your senses burn , and you feel completely drained on all levels. A weird sense of knowledge looms above you. Something that you had been in denial of , just came and confronted you. And whats more it emerged victorius.

And in the end .. we just watch , and wait , and don’t know if everything will be alright. Alienation grabs you by the throat. A fish out of water.

The fall of expectations, a reality at its utmost. We all face it some time or the other.

Categories: Gibberish

My Paranoia…

I went backwards. I didn’t think i couldn’t pull it off. A second chance in life. A chance that i could make my own. But alas. Things just aren’t that simple. Things aren’t that plain. They are rolled out to be our self destructers. I see again in this rewind, all that i wanted to hide from. I see the pains and the miseries. I see the happy losings. I see the painful held back tears. I see .. my own reflection , screaming through from the clutter of memories all adjoined in one. I see only things that bother me being the most insignificant of all. I see the corruption eating at the back of mind. I see myself laffing while every1 leaves. I see my paranoia breaking loose. I see my paranoia taking over, i see the evil come to life, and wake the dark side in me. I couldn’t wait to let go of this …. but …. i can’t. * To all concerned… this has just been a weird post. It has no meaning. It has no reprecussions. It holds no truths. Its just a blabbering that came to my mind.

Categories: Book of S